I’m sitting in what was once your front door step, waiting for everyone to arrive. Again, a wave of nostalgia and longing hits me. You should be here, picking me up off my drunk legs and sending me home. But you don’t live here anymore…
I was confronted today about why the relation between me and someone who once liked me is so hostile now. I was told that “it seems like it’s mostly coming from you” from someone else who has watched the whole ordeal unfold.
I’m fucked up! I have issues I’m trying very hard to deal with so I can be a functioning human being in “normal” society. Fuck me. I drag old frustrations into a new relationship. It sucks and I’m sorry for anyone who sees any sort of interest in me. I’m going to put you through some stuff that won’t be fair but I won’t know until you tell me “what the fuck is going on?”
Single life sucks manWhy does loving someone endlessly have to be so hard? I know it’s “not enough” but who is saying that? Does that person know what the fuck they’re doing? No. No one knows what they’re doing and that’s what the problem is. We need more people with standards. A knowledge of what they want out of a relationship and a maturity to realize that it may not come from just one person. I’m slowly learning that and it’s hard